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Hi and Welcome! July 24, 2003 Thursday, 7:03PM Gosh, now it really seems like ages since I last updated this site. I've been busy, I guess. I hope to be updating this site more frequently now since I am on my summer break and all. I currently do not have a job, although I help my sister out sometimes with her work. However, starting August, I will rot in my house since I will really have no job, and there seems to be nothing going on with my life. You might say, why don't I go out with my friends and have fun? Do you know how many friends I really have here?! It is sad, but true. I have friends, but we rarely hang out. It is my fault since I don't like to go out sometimes anyway. I hope to be writing songs or at least listen to music. I want to join this songwriting contest in the Philippines called "Himig Handog". I already have songs that I've written, but they're not really the type you would send in for a contest. I'm again in the process (or I wish I were) of job hunting. If you know of any, please let me know. It's really hard to find a job nowadays. I cannot believe I will be a senior in college this fall. I have no idea what I will be doing after. That's common for my age, isn't it? Oh, right! I forgot to mention. I turned 21 last June. I am super legal now. It really doesn't make a difference since I'm still doing the same things I was doing when I was 18. I feel like I'm still 18. I wish I were only 18 or even younger, like say, 5. I think as I grow older, more problems arise. I didn't have to worry about anything when I was 5. I am scared of growing up. I don't want to grow up. For my so-called friends back in the Philippines, or for anybody who cares, I lost weight! Uh-huh! And I cut my hair too! If you remember the kind of hair I had in second grade, I have the same hairstyle now. I will be posting new pictures so please visit the picture page. February 18, 2003 Tuesday, 7:30PM You know I'm supposed to be doing homework right now, but I'm really not in the mood. When am I ever in the mood?! I slept for 3 hrs this afternoon. I'm so pissed at myself. Why do I like to waste my time sleeping? It's not as if I don't get enough sleep. Believe me, I do. I'm listening to music right now and also trying to do school work at the same time. The key word there is trying, but it doesn't mean I'm doing it. When I get pissed at myself or anybody, I like to listen to music. The ones that are on my play list right now are "Your Body is a Wonderland", "Spider web", "Underneath It All", "Only Hope" and "Dancing Queen". I just keep on playing them over and over. I listen to music also when I write papers. I actually did a research when I was in high school to find out whether or not music helps a person to focus and concentrate when he listens to it while studying, and if so, which kind? I did a survey to find out. I honestly don't remember the result of that research. I have to go look for that paper one of these days and review the outcome. "Do you really love me underneath it all? Do you want to love me underneath it all? I'm really lucky, underneath it all...You make me better..." I'll let you guess what the title of that song is. hehehe =) Oh yeah...Nick Carter's concert is postponed until Saturday. Whoopee!!! Tuesday, 8:54AM Okay, I didn't get to do anything yesterday but eat, watch tv, and sleep! Sheesh...I woke up a bit earlier today to do some homework. I took a shower, got dressed and had breakfast. There's still snow and it's still snowing. I called my sis, Rachelle at her work to ask for the Metrocard that I lent her. She told me, "Ava, you don't have school today. All schools are closed." AH!!!! I told her, "Well thanks for calling me to let me know. I'm just all dressed and ready to go..." I forgive her. She thought I wake up late and leave for school at a later time. I always wake up early (99.9% of the time) and get dressed for school even if I don't have to go to school until after lunch. I dunno...I'm just like that. So, what will I do today? I have school work that I need to work on. I hope there's no school tomorrow. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Oh! I almost forgot to mention. I'm watching Nick Carter's concert tonight. Did you know that I had a huge crush on him. I wanted to name my future son "Nickolas Gene" after him, of course! hehehe Silly me! I'm hoping that the concert will be postponed. I don't feel like going out today especially in this kind of weather. Ew...=( February 17, 2003 It's snow day! Yippee! It's a holiday so we don't have school anyway. My gosh! There must be about 18 inches of snow outside! It's so quiet. We'll probably see some kids playing later, making a snowman. =) Aw... February 16, 2003 Sunday 9:51PM Well, hello, hello!!! My gosh, it's been almost a year since I last updated this site! I don't even remember how to upload pages in here. If you're reading this right now, that means I figured out how. Go me! =) Belated Happy Valentine's Day to all! I really don't know where to begin. As expected, a lot has happened between June and now. There have been a few major changes in my life. Being a junior in college is one of them! I quit my old job. Uh-huh. I just couldn't take it anymore. I realized it wasn't worth the anxiety. I was out of work for two months. I am now a nanny to Simon (4 1/2 yrs old) who is just a sweetie, and Sophie (8 yrs old) who is also sweet (sometimes!). I like it. It's no pressure and I love kids! Ooh...It's supposed to snow tonight...Let's see what happens tomorrow. June 13, 2002 Thursday 5:00PM My birthday's come and gone. It was this past Monday. My dad cooked last Saturday and after choir rehearsal the gang went over for dinner. It was fun. We sang, played the guitar, hung out.....I stayed home on my birthday, ran some errands for my dear mother, watched t.v., surfed the internet, the usual..... My co-workers surprised me with a cake last Tuesday. That was sweet of them. By the way, I've put more pictures and friends. Have a look..... June 6, 2002 Thursday 10:54PM Boy, it has been so long since I last updated this site, huh?! I haven't been inspired to, that's why. But tonight, I am inspired. You see, I met a guy that I truly adore. He's actually a priest. Father "Manoling" Francisco composed many of the religious songs that I love. I'm pretty sure that he formed the "Bukas Palad" ministry. If you only hear his songs. My gosh, you'll really fall in love with them. I wanted to talk to him so badly, which I did, and I wasn't really sure how to start our conversation. So I asked him where he's staying and whatnot. Anyway, a friend, Edward, who by the way knows Father real well because he was part of "Bukas Palad", mentioned to Father Manoling that I also compose songs. Father then said something like, "oh, good. Keep it going..." I was really, really, arg...I don't even have the word for it. It was an honor to meet him. I couldn't help but smile and get so excited! Oh, did I mention that Louie Ocampo is his uncle. He also composes great songs. A must hear! =) I only wish to be able to compose songs like them. My birthday is coming up. Yup, I'm turning 20 on Monday, June 10th. Wish me a Happy Birthday, please? I'm not doing anything special. It's okay though. I'll be staying home with my family. =) May 13, 2002 Monday 7:00PM Finals are next week. I'm taking 3 finals next Monday. I really have to study my butt off. Now, the question is, will I? I must, but that doesn't mean I will. =) It's raining. Did you know that rainy days and Mondays always get me down. hehehe It's a song. I don't remember who sang it though. If you do, please let me know. I added one new picture. Click here if you'd like to see it. May 12, 2002 Sunday 12:00AM Happy Mother's Day, Ma! And to all the mothers in the world! So, what did I get my mom? Nothing yet. Aren't I a present already?! =) So many of my friends who've visited this site have requested for more pictures. I will put more up as soon as I get them scanned. As you can see, it is midnight. I got home about an hour ago from a first communion party. I danced (of course) and even sang, mind you. I sang two songs- Underneath Your Clothes by Shakira and You're Still The One by Shania Twain. I sang the latter better. I kinda messed up the first song, but hey, the emcee asked me to sing the second one. That's either because she liked my voice or she felt bad for me coz I had messed up the first time! I think I like the first reason better. I really missed my niece (Ave Lynne) though. You see, at most parties that I go to, she's also there. This time, she's not. I used to drag her to the dance floor and make her dance with me. I think of it this way--she's the singer, and I'm the dancer. Anyway, I still had fun. The next party will be? On my birthday? I'm turning 20 in about a month. AHHHH!!!! I CAN wait. There's really nothing special about being 20. But I will make this year special. How? I dunno yet. =) May 7, 2002 Tuesday 7:00PM I've been feeling a bit down lately. Yeah, going out or watching movies sometimes erases that feeling, but when the week begins, I go back to feeling down again. Finals are coming up, and I haven't even reviewed for any of my classes. I always feel like missing my classes, but I really force myself not to. I'm always sleepy. All I do is eat and sleep. I know that's not a good sign. I chatted with a very good friend this morning. (I don't know if he knows that I consider him a very good friend of mine.) He always asks me how I am, why I'm feeling down if I am, and he really brightens my day. Now, I don't know if it's got anything to do with the fact that I had a crush on him. He knows that too. =) I realized though that it's much better if we're just friends. Besides, he already has a girlfriend. I think she's really lucky to have him. Porter, I've only gotten to know you through our IM's to each other, but thank you for always making my days better. =) May 4, 2002 Saturday 1:20AM I just got home. Ooh...... Some friends and I saw Spider-Man. Woohoo!!! Well, it wasn't bad. (Meaning, I didn't think that it was that great either.) Let me tell you though, the movie theater let people in at 9:30PM, we were there at 8:30PM, and boy, the line must've been about 2 blocks long! My friend got the tickets in advance too coz the tickets sell out fast! Three more weeks and I'm free! Finals are coming up, which also means that summer break is coming! Have I told you that my choir is having a concert in June. Yup. It's titled "Harana" or "Serenade" (in English). I'm part of a duet. Uh-huh. How did I get the part?! I twisted our choir director's arm! Just kidding. I'll be singing "I Will Be Here" by Steven Curtis Chapman. I love that song. It means a lot to me. Well, if you listen to it, you'll love it too. Alright, I gotta go to bed. Got class tomorrow. Ugh! May 2, 2002 Thursday 9:20PM I cannot believe that it's May already. Belated Happy Birthday, Mother! I won't even tell everyone that you're already *bleep* years old. =) I did some more "keeping in touch" today. I checked all my e-mail accounts, read my old e-mails, and e-mailed some old friends. I felt good afterwards. It's up to them if they'll e-mail me back. I will add more pictures when I get them scanned. I don't have a scanner yet. I ask my sis to scan the pictures for me at her job. Shhh....don't tell anyone. Meanwhile, you can visit my choir's website, www.fya.org, or click here if you'd like to see more pictures. April 26, 2002 Friday 8:35PM Happy birthday again, Cheng. Hey, it's still your birthday here. You know what I feel like doing? I feel like writing in Tagalog. Oh yes, to those of you who are wondering, I still know how. So here it goes: Pasensya nalang sa mga kaibigan ko na hindi nakakaintindi ng Tagalog. Gusto ko nga sanang mag lagay ng link na "Tagalog" at ilagay don ang mga nasulat ko o isusulat na Tagalog. Ang bilis talaga nang panahon, ano? Kita mo, malapit na ulit ang bakasyon namin. Ano na naman kaya ang gagawin ko? Ang dami kong hangad (oy, malalim yun ah?!) ngayong bakasyon. Gusto ko sanang matuto mag-drive, pumunta sa New Mexico, basahin ang "Noli Me Tangere", matutong tumugtog ng gitara, at kung ano ano pa. Sana naman magawa ko kahit man lang isa sa mga yon. O sige, baka naman maubusan na ako ng Tagalog ngayong gabi. Next time I'll try to write something in Italian. Ooh, do I still remember it well? We'll see.....here's a start. Buona Notte! April 25, 2002 Thursday 8:00PM Happy Birthday, Cheng! It's your birthday here tomorrow, but it's your birthday in the Philippines already. To all my friends who went to Oniette's funeral, thank you. For those who didn't, you better have a good reason why, or else I swear that's the end of you for me. April 23, 2002 Tuesday 11:00PM God, after lending us 18 years of a wonderful life, took it back last Sunday, April 21, 2002. Sonia Lyn "Oniette" M. Anterola was my cousin and friend. Her passing away came as a terrible shock to me. She was sick. Everyone knew that. But no one thought that her death would be so sudden. I am going to say no more about it; I only miss her more. If I don't talk about it, I feel as if she's just there. I wouldn't know what I'd do though when I go back to the Philippines and not see her or have her company. I guess I'm going to look yet again, on the bright side- I now have a special guardian angel that I know will always be with me. That same Sunday, my choir, had a our third week of the month mass at St. Malachy's Church. We sang some beautiful songs. Some of which goes like this: "Lord, it is good to give you thanks." Or, "To see the face of God is my heart's desire. To gaze upon the Lord is my one desire." And my personal favorite, "I will sing forever of your love oh Lord..." Have a great evening...God Bless. April 18, 2002 Thursday 11:45PM I just made a phone call to a friend. He and I had some issues that needed to be addressed. I feel that I can finally move on in my life. I am just hoping and praying that it is the same for him. I've already forgiven him for the heartache he unintentionally caused me. I hope he can forgive me for whatever pain I caused him. Only time will tell............. April 18, 2002 Thursday 7:00PM Thanks Hugs, for visiting my webpage. Here's what you wrote. Well, not all of it. ;-) It was pretty nice. But the pictures aren't showing. =P Don't know where the problem is. Oh well, till next time. I won't be spending too much time updating this today. I have to study for my class on Saturday, plus I'm trying to save my energy for work tomorrow. You see, we are having our "Quality Program" session tomorrow. I have to come up with some suggestions on how we can improve our work and how we can adjust to the changes that are going on. April 17, 2002 Wednesday 10:00PM :sigh: Thank YOU LORD, my exams are over! And thank YOU because I think I finally figured out how to update this thing. You see, I did something with it when I last updated it and I lost my links. Anyway, here's an e-mail from my dear Aunt Myra: Hi dear! Congrats, for your website is really Thanks Tita Myra! I love and miss you too! I had to put your comment here coz I don't have a guestbook yet. I will put one up as soon as I figure out how. Please be patient...By the way, an update about my hair. So, I went to school yesterday with a bandana on my head. It was fashionable. Really. =) After school, I went to the salon and showed the stylist my ruined hair. I was there for about 3 and a half hours, but she fixed it mind you- for 80 bucks! Now my hair is not yellow, but reddish/auburnish. Ain't that great?! =) April 15, 2002 Monday 10:30PM Oh gosh, what happened to me tonight is hilarious! I wanted to dye my hair brown. I had just dyed it black about 3 months ago. I usually use blonde-colored dye so that my hair would turn brown. So, I bought one after school, and dyed my hair. AHHHHH!!!!! It's not brown, it's yellowish, and ugly! To add to the dilemma, only the front part of my head is dyed- the bottom is still black! Nice, right?! How did that happen? I have no idea...... A procrastinator, I woke up at 4AM this morning to do a project for my Nutrition class that's due today. Yup! (I know I'm bad!) It turned out fine- I think. I've got 2 exams on Wednesday- Macroeconomics and World Geography. Wish me luck, and please pray for me! On a happier note, I dreamt of my girl best friend last night. (You know who you are.) =) She came to New York to visit, and I wanted to take her to my school, and show her around. Will it come true? I can only hope.........Good night you all! God Bless. April 13, 2002 Saturday 11:16PM Hi all! Alright, This page is already up on http://mysketchbook.net/ava, many thanks to Michael R. (Thanks Mike for all your help. I appreciate it!) I wanted to post it on tripod also. Sorry for the ads here. =) Thanks to Marianne as well for her help with this site. Thank you. A lot has happened between February and April. I have been so busy with school, been cramming for exams (shh...don't tell my professors!), and I AM STILL ALIVE! School, work and my choir have been keeping me busy, but I'm having fun; exhausted and cranky sometimes, but hey, you cannot blame me for being that way. I just get so darn overwhelmed with work and I get tired easily. I'm coping with everything though- from feeling so tired everyday to the fact that one of my beloved sisters just moved to New Mexico with her husband, and my niece moving back to the Philippines. Anyway, I'll keep this update short. Good night! February 17, 2002 Sunday Gosh, I have wanted to create my own website for so long, and alas, here it is. Yay! You know, I even wrote some ideas of what I'll be putting in on this in my journal. Hold on one sec. Let me go get it. Aw shucks! There is nothing much in this (my journal) that I'd want to put on this site. Oh well! Let me start from scratch. I'm listening to music right now while doing this. Music is my inspiration...it has always been a big part of my life. So you ask, what kind? Oh, almost anything. I like various artists. Don't laugh, but I was an avid fan of the Backstreet Boys. Yup! I WAS a teenybopper. I have almost all of their CDs, bought some posters that I couldn't post in my room coz I share it with my sisters. More about my family and music later. Now, on to what? I'm stuck. What next? Alright, let me go and create links for this site. =) This sucks. January 21, 2002 Thursday 8:56PM I've been in a good mood lately. Been busy at work and school, but I'm glad that I'm still cheerful! On another note, I am kinda pissed coz a card came for my sis from one of her friends in the Philippines while I didn't get any. Think about it. She hasn't written to any of her friends for so long and they still write to her. I, on the other hand, keep on writing to my friends and they don't write back. Isn't that unfair?! One of these days, I'll get tired of writing to them and watch, they'll miss my letters. hehehe :sigh: I just remembered, as it turned out, my professor for that class (Nutrition) that I missed yesterday, was absent! Yes! I didn't miss a class after all! Boy, am I lucky or what?! Even with this feeling of cheerfulness today, I feel somewhat lost. I am 19, turning 20 in a few months. I live in New York with my parents and siblings, but there is still something missing. I kinda feel trapped in a way. Here I am living my life in New York City, which is home, but I feel that the Philippines is my home too-or somewhere else is my home. I need to get away. I want to travel. I want to live by myself-not for long though. I think I'll miss my family that I'd feel so terrible if I don't see them for a long time. I've always thought of going back to the Philippines to study, to feel again how life is there. I've never stayed there long enough to really know whether I would want to live there again or not. I want to go to Italy also. I want to see Venice. I'll go there someday. You know what, I'll go there after I graduate. Yeah, that will be my graduation present for myself. =) It's all good to spurt this out. I still feel lost, but it's somehow lessened. Thank you for reading. Have a good night! ...It makes me so tired. I feel so uninspired. My head is battling with my heart. My logic has been torn apart. And now, it all turns sour. Come sweeten every afternoon...Say you'll stay. Don't come and go like you do... Sway by Bic Runga January 20, 2002 Wednesday 8:12 PM Some of my college experience have been so darn hilarious. Guess what happened to me today. I had two classes in the morning and another one in the afternoon. I patiently waited in the library until my afternoon class. I like having a long break in between classes. That way I get to do homework or some reading for my classes. So, there I was in the library thinking that my class was starting at 5PM. So I figured I could leave the library around 4:30 coz I needed to go to my locker, e-mail a friend. So I did that. While I was writing an e-mail for a friend and declining her offer to go to a taping of a show, I realized that class started at 4 and not 5! All I could think of was s***! I missed almost half the class coz it was already 4:45 and the class is only until 5:20. I then decided to just skip it. The first time since freshman year that I've missed a class. Ain't that great?! That was so stupid of me! I wanna tell you about that time when I sat in the wrong class for a whole period on the first day of class last fall. Well, that's basically the story of what happened. More of my unfortunate yet funny (I think) college experience next time. Till then! January 18, 2002 Monday 9:01 PM This is the second day that I'm working on this thing and I still haven't figured out how to create the links. Ugh! I hate this!!!!! I'm taking a shortcut, that's why. I haven't read the manual of FrontPage. I have no patience with manuals and I like taking shortcuts. Period. I'd like to learn to do so many things but I want them to be innate. For example, I've wanted to learn how to play the guitar for so long and until now, with the guitar that my sis bought for me about 2 years ago and all, I still don't know how to play it. I'm just darn lazy if you ask me. Hey, I'm pretty optimistic. I'll figure out how to do this thing. Somehow. :sigh: Of course, I'm listening to music again. I can't help falling in love with you... (UB40) How do I do this thing?! I have the slightest idea... Okay, let me play around with it and put something under Ava Joy.
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